@MelissaJacie Thank you!!!!!! (Taking a few deep breaths). Sigh..... it's hard, isn't it? The indecision, the psychological torture, the comparison, the perfectionism, the distractions, the endless possibilities, the guilt....! We start out with hope and good intentions and quickly get squashed by our own insecurities.
Oh yes. I struggle with wanting to do highly-detailed, cinematic-looking pieces but get overwhelmed as soon as I start. Then I jump back to trying a loose, flat style with minimal rendering, but immediately get bored (and discover anyway that it's harder than it looks!). Haha, I need to suck it up and finish something instead of jumping around endlessly with nothing to show for it.
Oooh, yes, that's exactly what I need! To take off this debilitating internal pressure and spend time just drawing for fun. Tonight, the plan is to put on a movie and to work on something with no expectations. Just to relax and see what I can do in my own way - not following a class or prompts or anything external to try and prevent that comparison monster derailing me.
Thank you again. I popped by your website the other day and was immediately inspired by your talent, dedication and faith. I need to surround myself with more people who are doing the things I want to do (because that outside noise is deafening, and I don't have any more time to waste feeling sorry for myself).