@MimiHecher Oh goodness, I know how you feel. I hate the sound of my voice, so the whole youtube video thing is a huge turnoff for me!
It is great that you will be doing this in your mother tongue. It's going slow (I started out wanting to post weekly but ugh I only have the energy for monthly now). I usually draft my main topic 1-2 weeks before posting date but only polish and add on the fun "Daily Delights" section on the day itself.
My subscriber number is tiny but I plan to keep going and give it at least a year of consistent posting.