@ArtMelC You are welcome! Actually, I was reading again the post and it's completly messy, I hope you really got what I tried to tell because I wrote it fast, and it's written too badly lol.
I know how hard it can be to apply knowledge, it's easy to watch videos and think "yeah I get it, I have listened to it before" (talking from experience here), but you won't really know you got the knowledge until you try to apply it.
I had been struggling with this a lot in my life.
What really helped me with this was reading about "learning" in general, how do we learn best, etc. It really pushes you to think about yourself and know what and doesn't work for you, at least that's been the case for me.